Thursday, January 30, 2014

Big Brother Big Sister

People keep asking me why I decided to become a Big in the Big Brother Big Sister program. I get asked; "Why?" Told,  "It'll look great on your resume!" Someone told me, "I thought about it and never went through with it." Some comments from people about me being in the program are either REALLY rude and they don't know it, or VERY supportive, which makes me happy. 

Well, when I was 8 years old I got put in the program. My grandma couldn't really do anything with me, so she put me in the program. My grandmother is in a wheelchair and suffers from MS. I was a very shy child and didn't get out much, so she thought this would be great for me. So, I met my Big and I was very shy. I rarely spoke to her, but she kept trying and trying. Eventually, she got me to make decent conversation, but I was still very shy. My Big put me in many situations where I'd have to introduce myself, use my manners, educated me on the things she found interesting, etc. She stayed with me from age 8-16. We went our separate ways as we were both growing up, but it wasn't a falling out,  just a change in each other's lives. 

Fast forward 15 years later, I decided I wanted to pay it forward. I received a little names Reniyah who's 8 years old! That is the same age I was when I started. I want to help my little Reniyah to grown up to be a wonderful lady. I absolutely love my little and I believe she loves me. I couldn't have asked for a better little lady to spend my time with. She keeps me on my toes, and teaches me as much as I teach her. I've only had her for about 8 months, but it feels like I've known her, her whole life. 

I just hope she keeps me longer than a year, which is the contract you sign.  I would like to give her at least the years Lori gave me, or longer. 

I hope some of you join BBBS, because there are a ton of little boys and girls who need role models in their lives. 


Sunday, January 26, 2014


First off I'd like to just say retiring isn't easy by any means. I'm sure a lot of wrestlers struggle through this, but when it's time you'll know, and I know. 

Pro wrestling is my first love and my first committed relationship. We were together for 13 years strong.   Even though my love has hurt me over and over again, especially when I was first breaking in, I still kept going back. LOL! I might be a little stubborn and hard headed, but I love this business with all my heart. I've taken a hiatus every now and then when I've gotten hurt, but never for long, but after; broken foot x3 (same freakin foot), tear in knee, broken coccyx, broken back, nose broken 3x, busted open x?, broken fingers, a broken arm, crack in skull, elbow chips, many black and blue spots, especially eyes, cuts, and many major and minor concussions, it's time. This is the HARDEST breakup i've ever had. Unless you've ever been a pro for x plus years, then you have no clue how I feel right now. 

I am grateful for everyone I've met, the family that I've grown from wrestling, wrestlers, trainers, fans, promoters, ring crew, photographers, anyone I've ever met in wrestling. Thank you to you all for every moment we've spent together, the impact you've had on my life, and the relationships we've grown. 

Thank you Horace for taking me under your wing, even though you didn't want me to wrestle, but you knew I would whether you liked it or not. Thanks for the hours you put in on the phone, ring, after practice, EVERY QUESTION I HAD AFTER WATCHING THE PRODUCT. LOL! EVERYTHING! Thank you Eddie Sharkey for all of you knowledge in the business, even out of ring experience. Thank you Lexie Fyfe for being my first woman trainer and helping transform me into the workers I was, for being one of my very best friends, for being my sister, and for being my maid of honor. Gran Apache por ser una inspiración increíble para mi carrera de lucha libre. Eres un entrenador asombroso, y agradezco todo el tiempo que puso en . Un año de entrenamiento desde era un tiempo de vida del conocimiento. GRACIAS, Te amo, muchos besos.

Thank you to all the women who have trusted me with their lives over the last 13 years. Thank you for putting on some of the best women's matches out there with me. To the ladies who have helped me grow over the years, thank you. To the ones I've gotten the chance to help, now it's your turn to do what I did for you, to those who DESERVE it. Make the new generation earn it, but now it's your turn to share the business with them. I am grateful and blessed to have met you all, worked with you all, and happy to call all of you that have stuck by my side through the years, my sisters, LOVE YOU ALL! To Lacey and Vicky (Jetta) we're officially retired, broads. No more MNHWC or IHWC. Love you Twats!

Now to the new Shine Champion Ivelisse. I want to thank you for my last match. You are a great competitor and deserve to be the new Shine Champ. You've worked so hard and I have seen you grow significantly over the years. Many fans probably don't know this, but Shine 16 was not the first time I've wrestled Ivie. I've wrestled her once YEARS ago and have known her before Valkyrie, and through our Valkyrie times we've grown closer. She is a spit fire, fast, smart, and is going to be one hell of a champion. Shine is lucky to have this lady as the second champ ever! Get it girl, and make me proud!

Lastly, I would like to thank pro wrestling and Lexie Fyfe for bringing me and my husband together. If it wasnt for those two, I would not have met the love of my life Christopher Gray. I'm a very happily married woman thank to this man. We have a family of each other and two wonderful pugs (Collin and Eddie), and I wouldn't trade my life for any other. Thank you my love for being so supportive of my career and being there for my last match. I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Now that I'm retired from one thing, doesn't mean I'm retired from life. I'm working on a lot of things, so you'll hear a lot from me soon. But it's time to work hard and put new energy into new things.

Sincerely, thank you, love (whatever you know me as) Rain/Bonnie/Payton or some call me Bon Bon lol!